WTH? Adjust My Lithium?

Of all the things my psychiatrist could say to me that would make me say… “WTH?” it would be her suggestion that we look at adjusting my Lithium… and I don’t mean adjust it up, I mean adjust it down.

I’m not entirely clear what her intent is.  She says we’ve tried many things in trying to treat my agoraphobia, but I don’t understand how adjusting my Lithium level will help.  In fact, my inclination is that fiddling with that… right now… with all going on in my life… is a very BAD idea… very very bad.

There is so much going on… sore shoulder, marriage issues… never mind what the agoraphobia does to me.  Why the hell are we going to mess with something that seems stable right now… my Bipolar?  WHY???

I’m still absorbing this info and thankfully she didn’t want to do anything right away as she is not going to be around, so come the middle of September when I go to see her, we’ll discuss it then.  I have to be really blunt though… I’m not wanting to do it.  I can remember what things are like when my mood goes out of whack and I am in no way, shape, or form wanting to go down that road.  No way.  Never.  Not a bloody chance.

Damn!  She’s got me worried.

I can’t believe it.  I really can’t.  In fact, I’m absolutely stunned and flabbergasted.  Speechless.

Frig!

There was a time in my life where I hated medications… with a passion.  Getting me to take them regularly was a battle unto itself and now, here I sit, many years later, finally accepting that I have to take them and even more, taking them regular and she wants to mess with what seems to be working.

Hell.. I just don’t get it.

Bye for now.