Shoulder, Anniversary… Other bits and pieces

Well…..

What can I say?  Yesterday was different and interesting and per norm, didn’t go quite as planned, but that just seems to be the way life goes… “The best laid plans of mice and men…. “

Not everything went off track yesterday but anniversary celebrations certainly did because hubby wasn’t feeling terribly well.  I felt really bad when I finally clued in to the idea that he was going to go through on dinner and a movie despite feeling as rotten as he was.  The look of relief on his face and the very perceptible relaxing of his body as he lay in bed, told me that I had made the right decision by telling him we could do it another night.  Actually.. what I told him was… lol… “You will still owe me dinner and a movie.”

Hubby and I have developed an interesting banter lately that makes me smile everytime I think of it.  It’s very reminiscent of when we were first dating – playful, witty, casual.  It’s been very interesting and a whole lot of fun.  I cannot really say any one thing accounts for the change though because there are too many changes going on for both him and I.  He’s getting some resolution to a health problem which had been plaguing him… I’ve been finding some peace within myself about some things which had been bothering me… and then there’s the counselling.  Can’t say for certain what effect the counselling has been having, but we have been taught a few useful tidbits which I do believe are helping in their own little way.

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My damn shoulder!  Ha!  Welcome to the PG version of what I say about it.  I did go and see the doctor yesterday.  I was in a bit of a quandary, not knowing if I should see him or the specialist, but opting to see him first because I knew I would get into him faster and at a minimum I needed something for pain.  I did get a prescription for a very strong anti-inflammatory, the downside being that I have to make sure I eat it with food and eating is not something I do very well – at least not on a regular basis, but the house is stocked with stonewheat thins, so I should do okay with that.  The conclusion was that I need to return to see the specialist – I already knew that!  Anyway, a return trip to the specialist (who I can’t get in to see until the end of July) and at that time we will discuss the possibility of decompression surgery on my shoulder because the relief hoped for from the cortisone was too short lived – I figure I may have gotten about two weeks of reduced pain, of which maybe two or three days were pain free.  In the meantime, I need to find some sort of pulley system I can set up and use as the doctor is very concerned with the rapidly diminishing range of motion in my shoulder.

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Sleep… I am once again doing battle with my old friend sleep.  It feels irregular and even when I do get a decent number of hours, I am waking up feeling exhausted.  I’m not exactly sure what is up with that, but I’ll be keeping some sort of sleep journal to try to determine what’s going wonky.  I know that I cannot survive for too long with sleep that isn’t regulated.  The funny thing here is it’s not that my sleep is not regulated, it just doesn’t feel…. right?  Whatever the case may be, I’ll have to get to the bottom of it if I am to maintain a health well-being.

Well, must run now… just remembered I am to take my brother to the grocery store… he goes shopping, I sit in the car… has become a semi-comfortable routine.  My way of helping out without sending my Agoraphobia into the panic zone.

Bye for now.