Up & Down – a personal blog

I’m blind.  Well half-blind.  I have lost my newest pair of glasses and while I see relatively okay without them, I certainly see a whole lot better with them.  I have wonky eyes – one is near-sighted and one is far-sighted, but this odd combination is what makes it so I can survive without my glasses.  Heck, as far as I know people who get laser surgery to correct their vision, intentionally get their eyes corrected to the way mind are.  Of course, they don’t have an astigmatism that hampers their vision.  For me, my glasses sharpen up what I see, prevent headaches when I’m having to view something for any length of time.  Oh yes.. they also make it so i can read the tv guide on the television.  LOL.. the important things.

Last time I remember seeing my newest pair of glasses was in May when I went on my trip with my colleague.  I’m awfully damn sure I wore them on the trip home as I am much more comfortable with my glasses on while driving.

I’m annoyed.  New glasses, not more than a month old when I lost them.  How stupid.

I’m stubborn.  I don’t want to buy new ones.  I hate going to the store where I need to order them.

I tried to go to the store to complete this task… it’s been on my to-do list … well…. for a while now.  But, I think I sabotaged my efforts today when I asked hubby to take me.  I asked him purely because I just can’t go and do the store all by myself (I’ve been trying with no success) and wanted him to drive me, but when he asked why I needed to go, his “penny-pinching” tendencies kicked in and we ended up in a big long discussion about all the different places where I could or should have looked.

This part of the conversation really annoyed me as I have been looking for my glasses for months, and have literally turned the house upside down looking for them.  We’ve been married for twelve years… he should realize that if I finally come to him for help with something like this… and his has been *this* long without the lost item… *sigh*

Needless to say, this conversation while I am already hyped up on anxiety getting ready to trigger over into panic . . .  unhappy at the thought of having lost my glasses… it’s just asking for disaster to happen.

So, I will not be ordering another pair of glasses today.  He’s retreated to the bedroom to watch a show, I have retreated to the computer room to tamp my anxiety levels back down.

*shrug*

Maybe tomorrow?

I have the sinking feeling I will be going and buying them on my own when nobody can grump in my ear about me losing things and how much they cost.

Bye for now.